What makes you happy?

What makes you happy?? whatever that is do it!! make all the mistakes in the world but make them while trying to better yourself. If you make a mistake okay... process it.... LEARN from it... and move the HELL ON! Find your happniess at the end of the tunnel. Iive a life that pushes you to make a difference in your future or in someone else's future. Never lose that craving for love and laughter.... chase those two like your life depends on it... cause it does. Its easy to lose modivation and fall into a down roll spireal, because you could always find somthing to complain about. The challenge is keeping an open mind, if you see all your doors closing, don't worry look for something heavy and strong maybe even sharp and break that dam door down!!!!! There's way to many high expectations in this world.  Have your own expectations and focus on them. IM SERIOUS focus on them, nobody should understand you. As long as you understand yourself your good. Its hard to stay positive but it's  all a matter of beliving and and investing time to yourself and your thoughts. Dont let the outside world or society determin the person you want to be. So many of us out there trying to look a certain way or be a kind of person because in our mind thats what "in" or "appealing". I believe we should chase the life that brings natural TRUE happiness and peace to our surroundings. In order to find out what makes us truly happy we must all invest time in our thoughts... try to go back in time and remember what made us smile.. try to find a memory that changed your life. Figure out if there's any way you could make that sort impact in someone else's life.... maybe your kids? Maybe a complete stranger? Remember what we dreamt about when we were little..? Why did we stop?  find what gives Value to your life, and put it first. Develope a mind set that says I can do it. chase a life of faith and courage. Be careful with lifes distractions, they are there for us to lose sight of who we are.

♡Luzz

Remember it's up to you.. to keep yourself encouraged♡

Mothers♡ love it..believe it..live it..

Never enough sleep 

Wake up in shock of what my life has become. 

Looking for little missing socks 

Prepping meals 

  Because little ones need to eat

Pretend I don't hear them laughing

During hide an seek

Story time took over my heart

♡

I wipe little tears and clean little scrapes

Gave up the last cookie

Lied and said I didn't want it

And then watched 

them drop it!

I'm at the edge of the bed 

Two days with no shower 

And worried about tomorrows

Spelling test!

Wishing i cloud somehow be there....

Just to whisper

"You got this" 

When keeping little promises

Becomes more important 

Then keeping friends

suddenly Love has a different meaning 

Suddenly everything makes sense 

Highlights become

tight hugs

An I love you

Building tents

Telling storys

Sleepless nights are never fun 

Five more minutes 

Is Never enough 

Theres

Too much to do

And I do it all for you 

My life without you

Was never this fun

♡

I was laughing so hard!! Baby Maya is so heavy it takes both of them to hold her, and not for very long.  

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

Seriously though... mothers don't get enough credit. It really doesn't matter what kind of mother you are. Mom to one kid, mom to multiple kids, single mom, married mom, step mom, working mom, stay at home mom. IT DOESN'T matter, it's hard!! Every one of us has our challenges. I myself have many! I can't even begin to tell you.. I'm the mom who let's her kids play tag at the grocery store.. and never has dinner ready at a set time.  I just wanted to say that you are doing great!  This mothering thing is quite complex and HARD very hard at times so I believe we should encourage one another and throw judgment out the window cause truth be told no one is perfect. So give yourself some credit!! Follow your mother's instincts and carry on with your beliefs. Your a mother!! Believe it, love it! Live it! Don't dwell on your mistakes we all make them.. I wish you all a long night with rest.. lots of patience in the morning followed by a burst of energy through out the day

Happy mother's day 

♡Luz

25 weeks pregnant Open and Exposed

25 weeks pregnant!! more then half way to the end. This pregnancy is flying bye...  i'm not ready AT ALL! When they say every pregnacy is different, they weren't lieing. Every single one of mine has been unique in there own way. I have to say that by FAR this one has been the most emotionally challenging one. I have so many thoughts of somthing going wrong. Feeling like this is way too good to be true!! Wondering if I can even do it... kinda feels like I have never done this before!! (Hahaha) I know right I should have this down. Truth is I don't feel like I do. I know it's the hormones talking. I GOT THIS! 

But I can't help to feel scared! And Anxious! I keep trying to stay focused on the positive. At the end of this journey I'll get to meet this beautiful baby that's been very gently kicking me. As if she knows that mama needs a break. If there's anyone who truly knows how I feel is her I guess. She knows I feel overwhelmed and sad at times. A bit lonely and scared. Sometimes when I'm about to lose it, out of nowhere I get this small reminder, a little feeling that everything will be okay. I like to think it's the baby.. reminding me that I can't give up. I have to be strong even when I'm scared. I have to get ready even if I'm not. If there's one thing I'v learned is that being pregnant brings out the worst and the best in you. Its more then just gaining some weight and delivering. Its about the journey... it teaches you so much about yourself. It challenges you at times and it makes you feel things.. I mean REALLY feel them. Its kinda like your heart and soul is raw... open and exposed.

A self reminder of what kind of mother I wanna be

3 more months

And Maya will officially be a big sister!

I can't wait to see how that goes

Maya is very much obsessed with mommy

So this is gonna get interesting

A mom of four! 

A MOM OF FOUR!!!!

Seriously!

I still can't believe it...

I can't believe the amount of love I feel inside 

And worry....

I worry I will fail them

Or I won't give them equal time

A mom can only hope and pray

That God will give her the strength

I believe a daily reminder to self 

Of what kind of mother you wanna be helps

A mother that loves

Listens

Incourages

Lifts 

Laughs

And plays

♡

Never Give Up 

Luz

It's been a while

 Its been a while... Iam so sorry for my absence here. I miss this place so much. Lately its been so hard to find time to do basically anything. It's been pretty crazy. Iv had some major changes in my life. This last couple of months I have basically been trying to take  ahold of my situation. Trying to find some type of routine and adjust as much as possible to all this new responsibilities. My husband has been gone on deployment for about four months now and that hasn't been easy. I mean seriously its been tough. Leading up to his deployment i was pretty confident that I had things covered, I knew it was gonna be hard but never this hard! Its not our first time apart, but this time is different. I started missing him as soon as he left!! The kids had an immediate reaction to it, lots of crying and mood swings. The whole first month was really hard to sleep through. I had major insomnia and nightmares! Iv been in battle with time and stress to get everything done. Feeling super overwhelmed with  presures I put on myself to be a good mom and having the house clean is seriously making me lose my mind.                                               

      Kinda funny how I thought I would have everything under control without my husband around to help. Its feeling like he did a lot more then what I gave him credit for. Seperations are not only hard but also a big eye opener. Iv been despretly needing those tight hugs and wet kisses he gave me. Im seriously missing my coffee partner. I try to keep myself and the kids busy hoping time goes by fast. I have to admit I've had a couple of rough days! I raised my voice a little to loud  and not showed the best attitude about certain situations. I've gone to bed feeling like a terrible person. I know that this is only temporary and soon everything will be okay. Trying to focus on the things that matter and not letting the insignificant things ruine my day like the mountains of laudary I have. I swear if I go missing its because iam barried underneith all that dirty laudary i just can't seem to get around to.                                           Its really important for me to stay positive and find ways to not lose that peace i crave in my heart. Its been tough latley VERY tough. But things are getting better, to start i found some time to jump on here and write. And honestly it feels good! My plan is to keep going and BREATH. Not to mention this blogs name is Never Give Up. And that's what I attempte to do. 

       I must remember why I started, and that's to reach out and incourage others. But Somtimes I find myself being the one needing the encouragement. And that's basically what iv been doing... I've been serching for life's push.  listening to alot of music. Looking at old pictures. Having long conversations with my God. I've had many many cries of frustration. There's been alot of cleaning, that goes unnoticed. I sit and strech and take a couple of deep breaths when ever I get the chance. I've been paying closer attention to the simple things in my life.  I find my encouragement in my kids... and the plans I have for the future. My dreams keep me focused. I'm just a young mom going through life with fears and dreams and lots of faith. Hoping that everything I do won't  go unnoticed. I try very hard to keep my kids happy, but I know that in order to raise happy children a mother must be happy herself. So here's to a happy life and never given up! No matter how hard times get.

Luz♡

Yess! I'm pregnant

Yess baby number four is on its way!! And it was NO accident!! My husband and I were activily trying to get pregnant before his deployment. Many thought i was crazy for trying because that meant i was gonna be at home with a five and seven year old. Plus baby Maya is only a few mounths old and dealing with a pregnacy all at he same time seemed crazy. Truth is I was in such a motherhood high after I gave birth to Maya that i got swept up in the idea of having more kids! I love being a mom and the whole pregnacy part well i quite enjoy that too! I really didn't think about it too much before we started trying.. sure enough it happened!  And I couldnt have been more happy!! I remember I was holding baby Maya in my arms while pasing back and forth waiting for the pregnancy test to show the result. I was home alone with Baby Maya. I was in such a hurry to find out that i didnt wait to take the test with my husband, he was still at work. And there it was... it was positive!!!!!!!!! I cryed right away. I was not expecting to cry but there i was crying of happiness and kissing baby Maya! First thing I did was i got on my knees and thanked my Lord. I got straight on my knees with out even thinking... witch makes me feel really emotional as im writing this. I knew i wanted to be a mom once again but I didn't quite know how badly I really wanted it till that moment. I was so overwhelmed with joy and gratitude. I cant believe that Im given this amaizing blessing once again.
I quickly shared the news with my husband and kids and they were super happy. Our family is growing and its an amazing feeling. So here we are... Im 22 weeks pregnant due in August. Dads been delpoyed for 4 months now. Baby Maya is 10 months growing up way too fast. Rebeka and Alosno are running around yelling and screaming! Being crazy kids. It hasn't been easy, thats for sure. Iv had my moments were I wonder if I'll be able to handle what's coming. This hormones are really getting to me. I find myself crying for the littlest things. 
  And I really really miss my husband! It sucks that his missing the whole thing. I send him lots if pictures and videos trying to keep him involved as much as i can. I have to embrace what's happening. Iam so blessed and very grateful for my life! Being a mom is by far the best part of my life. And as hard as it does get.... I am very fortunate to be able to stay at home to raise  the kids. 

Luzz ♡
     

Maya is six months

I WANNA EAT HER!

She is the cutest most sweetest baby girl

Loves pretty much everyone and anything

Goes crazy when mommy sings to her

Very independent. . Holds her bottle 

Wants to drink from a cup

Trying to crawl  

we started feeding her some fruits 

This past six months have been some of the best months of my life

I love waking up to her 

And pretty much being together every second of our day. 

She's been teething since she was two months but still no teeth!!! 

Last Doc appointment baby girl weigh in at 22lb!!! 

If you read Maya five months post you read I began teaching her the sign language  for milk. 

And it's a totall success! !!!!!

She recognizes it and knows exactly what it means ! 

Five of my favorite things to do with Maya

*taking pictures of course!!!

*I enjoy napping with her I purposely let her breath on my face cause I love that milk breath

*Every morning I put music on and I dance with her in my arms for a good thirty minutes 

And she smiles the entire time 

*I really enjoy talking to her! I find myself going on and on about life to her. And I feel no judgment, she just stares at me with those beautiful eyes

*Making her laugh, acting like a bunny works everytime